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Wednesday, February 20, 2013

LINK UP Bachelor Thoughts: Sean's Season {Episode 7}

Good News, Friends!!! 
I have decided to make this a button only link up party!
 I have been reading SO many Bachelor posts and I thought--Hey! Why not? Let's all get in on the drama, eh?
Here are the rules: 

1. Follow Oh, Just Living the Dream. 
2. Put the Bachelor button at the end of your post and somewhere in your blog link it back to mine! Easy enough, eh?
3. Leave a comment telling me that you linked up!!!! 

HERE'S TO SOME JUICY DRAMA POSTS.
Oh, yea. 





If you are completely lost then go check out my other Bachelor posts.
Beware: These are brutally honest and quite mean. But it's fine...this show is all fake. blah blah blah)
(didn't do first two episodes. DON'T HATE ME).


Okay, we are at the hometown dates. Where does time go? You ready to rock?

*AshLee 
Ope, there goes Ashlee again with her deep, dramatic comments.

Yea, AshLee definitely was adopted. She is much more attractive than her parents. Haha.

Her parents are weird.
But, then again, so is she kinda. I like her. I like her a lot...but her parents are odd ducks.

Oh, her mother is extremely deep too. It's all making sense.

Anyone else getting this weird vibe from these people? Hmmm I cannot pinpoint it.

"If you know Ashlee...she's putting a lot of her heart into this..."-Ashlee's father.
Uh, ya think? 

Her dad's story made me cry. Yep, I said it. I am crying. I never thought this day would come.
Wow. What a tender man.

"Can't wait to meet your mom and dad and your family"-Ashlee's Mother.
He just laughs. Ha uhhhhhhh awkward.

Uh oh, people!
Their relationship seems so deep. Like there are a lot of things that are fitting for those two, but holy crap, that girl is in la la land. I feel like she is so swept off of her feet that she has forgotten about reality.
I think Ashlee may be a little too serious for Sean. No? Maybe?

*Catherine

I love Catherine. I love how dorky and crazy and real she is.

I do not love how she is always SCREAMING at the TV. I feel like she is always talking so freaking loud.

He is so real with her. She brings out a side of him that he isn't used to and I absolutely love that.

Her family is so opposite of Sean's...that may be a struggle for him.

My sisters would do the exact same thing as Catherine's sisters are doing.
Hahahaha (right Mac, Bri, and Lu?)
I don't even want to imagine what my family would do if I brought a guy home on national TV. haha

You know what's funny...my family would do the same thing and be just as rough as Catherine's. Probably worse.


*Lindsay

Ughhhh Lindsay's voice. Shut uppppppp.
"She brings out the kid in me"-Sean
That's exactly what he said about Catherine.

Lindsay doesn't seem very smart. Haha.

Oh my gosh this is SO AWKWARD. He hates his life right now.
This is retarded.
"Army Prep?" Is this really happening? Holy hell.

hahaha she just smacked his butt. Yesssss.

HA homeboy is so scared to meet Lindsay's dad.

Ope, her mom is just like Lindsay. The scream when she walks in? Kind of odd.
My mother would never do that. Haha.

Her dad does not find Lindsay wearing a wedding dress amusing. At all. muhahaha.

Lindsay's dad is not that scary. Freak, my dad is scarier than him! Haha. But Sean is soooooo scared. I kinda enjoy this!!!

"I'm crazy about your daughter...."- Sean
.....16 times this episode to every.single.parent.
blah blah blah

"I can see myself in your family!"
Whooooooa that's huge.

*Desiree

"I'm gonna just want company and go hiking and...just...make out!"-Desiree
hahaha amen, sista.

Oh my gosh this is so fake. Holy crap. This is ridiculous.
This was so stupid, Bachelor.
Wow I cannot believe they decided to do it this way?
I'm pissed. They are just trying to make us hate Desiree more.
Booooooo.

OH MY GOSH SHE TOTALLY GOT ME--AND SEAN.
This is why I am so easy to make fun of.
That was perfect. Kinda messed up, but perfect! That's hilarious.

Oh my gosh her parents are adorable. They are such dorks...I'm obsessed with them.

Her brother is such a tool. hahahaha. He seems like such a classy guy....NOT.

"Do you mind if I HOLLA at you for a minute?"
Yep. He just said that.
Uhhh boy, you are whiiiiite. Hate to break it to you.

He has said reciprocation 3 times now.
He thinks it makes him seem smart.
Not when you repeat a word that many times, cowboy.
And Sean is like, "What is wrong with you?" hahaha.
hahaha her brother is ridiculous.

Oh no, Sean is pissed.
Her brother could possibly ruin this chance for Des.
Wow...if I were Desiree, I would be pissed.
 Obviously her brother is quite distant from the family--he has walked all over the entire family before in the past.
FAMILY ISSUES ARE ARISING. YIIIIIIKES.
#psychobabble

At this point, Desiree or Catherine are going home.
Why?
BECAUSE HOMETOWNS ARE SO IMPORTANT TO HIM. Sean is a family guy. And both Catherine and Desiree have very different families than he does. They are both very different than him.

CALLED IT. I SO CALLED IT.
Man, I'm good at this.

*Rose Ceremony

Oooh Desiree's dress. I love it.

Catherine looks beautiful.

Well, all of these girls are hot. So...he wins no matter what. Hahaha.

WHAT. HE JUST PUT THE ROSE DOWN. WHAT IS HAPPENING. AHHHH.

Wow Des is going home cause of her dysfunctional family. That sucks.
Case in point: Have a normal family, k?

I think Sean thinks he's making a mistake, too. He's totally questioning himself right now.

"I've been praying for clarity this entire time to make the right decision...."-Sean
I KNEW HE WAS MORMON. He prays?! Yayyy. hahaha.

Wow, this is sad.

Since watching this show, something that I have learned is that family makes all of the difference. There are wonderful girls, but they get kicked off because the guy doesn't like her family. It happens every season. I would be so pissed if I were Des--her brother totally ruined this for her.

I am actually incredibly shocked. I thought, out of the all of the girls that Desiree was the best fit for Sean. I am a little confused though as to why she didn't warn him beforehand--she had to have known that her brother was going to pull something like that. I feel like instead of being honest and warning Sean beforehand, she acted dumb towards the whole thing, almost oblivious to her family's issues. Seems quite odd to me...

Well, looks like it's down to Ashlee or Lindsay. It'll probably be Lindsay, with her horribly annoying voice. Ugh. I don't hate her, don't get me wrong...but Des was just perfect for him. He's an idiot.

Note: I have not watched the "Sean Tells All" Episode yet...so, yea, I will not be posting about that. I'm sure you're all extremely heartbroken over there...

Monday, February 18, 2013

Funk.

I just realized that I haven't really written for awhile.
And by writing, I don't mean nonchalant, petty posts such as the Bachelor and sarcastic humor. I am simply referring to an actual post with a speck of depth to it.

Yet, you know what is sad? I have found that I have gained more "followers" by posting about this "stupid" information. Don't get me wrong, I love it. I think it's hilarious to sit there and analyze the completely ridiculous inner workings of a guy kissing 25 different women (how sad, huh?).

But, I think that's what the problem is.
My priorities are a little of whack right now.

I went for a drive (love my drives) and just needed to do some thinking.
I think I'm in a funk.
I get in a lot funks, it's true.

See, the thing about me is that I function much better with routine. I do better when I have something meaningful and difficult happening in my life. I function better with consistency, because "consistent" isn't exactly a word I would use to describe my personality. So, I find every consistent thing I can in my life to counteract my natural demeanor.
But as I sat there the other night, in my bed, all alone, watching Grey's Anatomy...
 I realized something.

I am just going through life. I am not really living it. 

I crave to be in sunshine right now. I crave to go somewhere.
Even though I need routine in my life, I also need spontaneity. That spontaneity and fun is very important to me. And I never realized how important these "adventures" are to me.
It is important to me to find meaning in everything that I do.
Sounds dramatic, huh?
Oh you have no idea.
Because I am constantly finding meaning in things, it causes a lot of stress and anxiety and hurt feelings. Because every relationship that I have has to have immense meaning, I find that it wears on me. I take things personally, when I know, logically, that I shouldn't. I react in a way that does not coincide with a particular incident that happens. It's not that I'm completely illogical, it's that I simply follow my feelings and my gut.
And that is exhausting. It's tiring. And frankly, I am sick of it. 

I don't do anything half. Anything. If I decide to do something in my life I'm gonna do it--and put 110% into it. Which is a good thing, to some degree. And because of it, I know that I will succeed in my life. Yet, because of this wave of passion that flows throughout me, I eventually crash.

I love my job as a 4th grade teacher. In fact, I love it so much I find that I have let that be a crutch in other aspects of my life. I think I subconsciously thought, "If I become the best teacher I know how, everything else in my life will work out how it's supposed to."
But, my dear friends, that is not the case. Since the summer, my life has been constant teaching. And I, literally, mean constant. I eat, breathe, think about what unit plan I need to plan next, what child needs my help next. Which isn't a bad thing, right?
 But I think I have become so engrossed that I have forgotten a little part of me.

The part that needs to step back and breathe for a minute.

But, my friends, I am doing what I can to wake up tomorrow; to remind myself that it is a new day. That I get to take more breaths tomorrow and that I can remember that not everything is as big of deal as we think it is. In the moment, even though it may seem like the biggest trial--it all works out. Because, as cliche as it sounds, everything happens for a reason. And I know that I will keep being pushed in this life.
I know that the Lord is going to continue to stretch me; He's going to continue to push me, until I learn from my mistakes, until I learn to become the most well rounded person possible.
And in the meantime there are going to be a lot of tears.
There are going to be a lot of dramatic moments.
I can't help it. It's in my nature.

But, what it comes down to, is that, tomorrow is going to be a new day. And I can live it however I want.
I can start living and breathing in the way that I want.
How cool is that?
How grateful I am for new days.


Sunday, February 17, 2013

It's a Monday and There is No School So I Am Up LATE.

Oh yea!
12:00 (a.m., mind you) on a Sunday night! I don't have to teach my littles tomorrow so I am feeling young...so let's set this world on fire. (Name that song!)
I'm practically a freshman in college all over again.
Except I don't think I could do all nighter even if you paid me anymore. I love sleep too much. 

I don't really have that much to say right now.
Actually, wait, I lied.
I have a lot to say.
It's been a rough weekend.
There, I said it.
...It's just that I don't really know how to put it into words that will make logical sense at the moment.
And if it is logical it's far too personal for this public of a blog.
And then I would have to deal with the aftermath of a lot of my relationships.
Yea...no...not really feelin' that right now.

So, I'm going to leave you with some other forms of showing how all the millions of thoughts and feelings that are overtaking me at the moment:
Music, Pinterest quotes and instagram pictures. Naturally. 


More importantly, come link up at the Monday Mingling! I'm a co host. Ya know, since I'm such a party animal tonight. 






Come be my friend on Pinterest.
Oh, and Instagram
PS can all of my Pinterest friends be my blogger friends too? I seem to have some friends there. Here? Meh not so much. 
I'm too sarcastic. No? 



1. A Lifestory Song.
And yes, this is Taylor Swift.
I love her. I do. I can't help it. 


2. A Deep Instagram Lifestory Quote.
(We all have them, don't pretend like you don't.) 
Oh, how true this is.


3. Pinterest.
The Ultimate Daydreamer's Lifestory. 



















hahahahaha had to put that in there.
Because this is definitely one of my thoughts recently.
About 6 times today, actually








Are you picking up what I'm putting down?
...yea, didn't think so.
Whole lot of thoughts, eh?
Whew. I think it's time for sleep. 
The next few months of my life are gonna be insane.
You ready for this, y'all?

Happy President's Day!
(tried to end with a positive, non-dramatic comment. did it work?)
xoxo.


Thursday, February 14, 2013

It's the Day of Love...Oooh La La.

That's what I wrote on my whiteboard today.
I love to talk about love because my boys react to it. A lot.

When I think about Valentine's Day...
At first, I'm all: 

via

But then I remember this quote:

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.
You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.
You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.
When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.
They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.
Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but ratherthey build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.
There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.
You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.
The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.
Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again.
Colors seem brighter and more brilliant.
Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all.
A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.
In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby.
Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.
You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do.
Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.
You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.
You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you.
You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remainloyal to the end.
Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.
Bob Marley






How perfect is that? Love it. 
I don't hate Valentine's Day.
You think I would be because I tend to be sort of cynical (ha). 
However, I am also a hopeless romantic. 
There is nothing better than just loving those that surround you. 
I love spending it with my 4th grade students, too. 
They are so excited about giving. 
And that makes me happy.
My body is dying. I just want all of those treats. I have already given in. POINTS (cough girls, you know who you are, cough).
It's a holiday. I do what I want. 
Celebrate good times. 

Chocolate and a day of love?
Who cares if you are single. I have been single on many Valentine's thus far in my life (yes, in my ripe ol age) and I love that we can celebrate the good that we see in people.
Regardless if they piss you off a lot of the time. 
 Hakuna Mutata. 




Happy Love Day, Y'all!
xoxo


Wednesday, February 13, 2013

LINK UP Bachelor Thoughts: Sean's Season {Episode 6}

Good News, Friends!!! 
I have decided to make this a button only link up party!
 I have been reading SO many Bachelor posts and I thought--Hey! Why not? Let's all get in on the drama, eh?
Here are the rules: 

1. Follow Oh, Just Living the Dream. 
2. Put the Bachelor button at the end of your post and somewhere in your blog link it back to mine! Easy enough, eh?
3. Leave a comment telling me that you linked up!!!! 

HERE'S TO SOME JUICY DRAMA POSTS.
Oh, yea. 


Oh, Just Living the Dream





First things first, if you are completely lost then go check out my other Bachelor posts.
Beware: These are brutally honest and quite mean. But it's fine...this show is all fake. blah blah blah)
Episode 5
Episode 4
Episode 3
(didn't do first two episodes. DON'T HATE ME).

---AshLee's One on One Date---

I hate how AshLee spells her name--with the capital L. There is no need for the Lee to be capitalized. No need at all. It's like when those Utah girls spell their name: Lyndzey or Chasdidee. Just capitalization at the beginning of the name. That's all we want.
*sorry to those of you who spell your name like this. I still love you. It's not you, it's me. 

"This is the best, most fun date I have had so far...."-Sean
So far? As in that day? Haha. What does he mean by that? Haha

ASHLEE WITH THE CAPITAL L GOT MARRIED WHEN SHE WAS 17.
Is she Mormon? (jk. that's not funny.) 

Sean's thoughts as she is telling him that: ... "Cool. You were an idiot at 17. Who wasn't? I mean the rest of us just like had alcohol or made out with the opposite sex...but get married? Sure why not? It's whatevs. She likes marriage. SO that's neat. I want to get married. I mean, yea, that's kinda weird. But you're hot. And obsessed with me. So that's all that matters. "

Whoa, they are screaming. That's unnecessary. And completely random.

She just screamed that she loved Sean? Why is she yelling at him? I feel like that is not a normal way to tell someone that you love them...
See what I mean. So emotional and over the top. 

Hmmm, I'm gonna say it. I don't like Ashlee. I mean she's no Tierra, but I'm just not in love with her. (Not that I would actually be in love with her...) She is too vulnerable and emotional. She's too serious. I think it's probably her age--I feel like she's almost a little too desperate to get married. Does that make sense?

--Tierra's One on One Date---

"He bought me some of the most incredible things you can buy on the first date.
........THINGS THAT THE SHOWS BUYS FOR YOU HONEY. Duh.

Uh oh, Tierra is gonna start dancing with these parade people. I can feel it.
CALLED IT. Oh man, I so called it.

"Tierra has a great personality..."-Sean
Tierra has a crazy personality, Seany boy. Use your brain for 3 seconds.

This date is BORING.
I'm bored. Where's Tierra's drama?  At least it made things interesting.

Ope, here we go... Finally, Tierra. I was just waiting. Bring the drama. Bring it, darling.

Note: Commercial--Are you the next contestant for The Bachelor or Bachelorette? 
YES. Put me on. I would make this show interesting, you have no idea. 
But like good interesting. Not like Tierra interesting. 
Or...well..

"I feel like I'm behind in the game..."
There's your problem, girlfran.... you think its a game!!!

Oh man, she is so good. She is so smooth, that Tierra girl.

"She's probably not nice to the other women, but it's good to know that she is here for me."-Sean
Dear Sean, 
When women treat other women sh** that is usually a good indicator of their character. How do you think your wife is going to survive when you are not around when she treats other women like Tierra does all of the time?
Again, use the other head, my dear, blonde, Sean. 
K THANKS BYE. 

---Group Date: Catherine, Lindsay, and Desiree---

"I just need to pee and I'm good to go."- Catherine.
Catherine, YES.  I love you. I wish her and Sean were more into each other. Cause she seems so real. And awesome. Haha. I think he likes her, just not as much as the other girls.
BEST LINE OF THE SEASON THUS FAR.

I love this sunrise/sunset date!!!! It would be so much fun.

"It seems like Desiree and Sean are on their own date. It's hard to sit back and watch them connect"-Catherine.
THAT'S BECAUSE DESIREE IS GOING TO WIN, BABE. Go Des, go!
...But that sucks to sit back and watch two people connect, while you just hang out. I know that feeling! You don't want to be overbearing, but you want to connect with the guy, too. Blah.

Lindsay is not very cute when she has wet hair. Wow. Whooooooa. Harsh, I know. (And that's saying something cause I am like anti makeup half of the time! aha). She has definitely grown on me. I don't hate her, but I still think she is very annoying.

Leslie is hilarious. Like, I feel like I would be her best friend. Is she ready for a deep relationship? Absolutely not. She's too young. Or at least acts really young.

You know what is so hard about Sean...you can't really see who he likes. He does not really put himself out there with all of these girls. I honest couldn't tell you who he likes the most. I have no idea who is going home this week. Seems so weird. 

Ope, well there is my answer. He doesn't know who he likes the most. There's your problem, Sean. 

This season is weird for me. I don't like any of these girls except Desiree. I mean, I don't hate any of them (except Tierra of course!) but I just don't LOVE anyone except Desiree. Is this just me?

Less tongue, Sean. Let's keep working on your kissing, babe. I mean, I'd be willing to help. That is, if you don't shove your tongue down my throat. (TMI?)

Catherine hasn't made eye contact with Sean once while telling him that awful story about her father. Hmmmm.... This is clearly very difficult for her to tell. Yikes.

Why is Desiree crying when talking about her family? I feel like that's kinda weird. I mean, I love my family and they mean everything to me, but I don't think I would cry when talking about him. I only cry  when I'm talking negatively about my family. Hahaha.  Eh, I am just being cynical. Sorry. That's actually super sweet. Good for her.

Dang...I'm bummed that Lindsay got the rose. She's my least favorite on this date. Boooooo.

I am not feeling the love on this season. At all. From anyone. Ya know?
It's becoming more and more fake--it just seems like a bunch of people are going on dates and that's it. Like no emotion or passion or love.

Sean doesn't seem genuine. At all. Hmph.

----One on One Date with Leslie--- 

Loooove Leslie's pink skirt. Totes adorbs. haha.

I don't think Leslie is cute. How terrible am I?! She has weird eyes and weird makeup taste. What's with the bright purple?

....that was an awkward conversation. All I could focus on was her purple eyeshadow.

I bet Leslie goes home. Calling it now.

There we go!! There's less tongue!!! Yay, Sean! You're learning!!! woooo talk about sexual tension between these two.

"Who's for me? Who's not? I don't know."-Sean
Here's your solution, Sean: PRAY ABOUT IT. #mormon

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"Don't end up with a girl that no one likes."
GOOD ADVICE, SISTER. AMEN.


"I hope when I am 32 years old, that I have a family and am not sitting around and gossiping with 20 year old girls..."- Tierra to AshLee. Woooo low blow. She kind of has a point, though. I hate her, but I can kinda see it. That was a low blow though.

Tierra cannot have a normal conversation. She can't just sit down and talk and be open and realize where other people are coming from.

"Girls are just jealous...guys love me!"Ha. Oh geez.

I CAN'T CONTROL MY EYEBROW.
K, this is the second best line of the show this year so far.
hahahahahahaha. Kills me.

Just send Tierra home already. Goodness gracious!

"Tierra you have a sparkle. Don't let those other girls diminish that sparkle. That's what my parents said."-Tierra
Does "sparkle" mean an evil curse? Hahaha. 

Why does Tierra have a tattoo on her wedding ring finger? Hmmm seems suspicious. Somebody explain that to me...

K, it is always somebody ...It was Robyn, now it's Ashlee. Doesn't Sean see that Tierra is at the center of it all?

Wow Tierra is a freaking good manipulator. Makes me sick to my stomach.

YES SEAN, YES!!!!! YOU USED YOUR BRAIN. YAYYYY!!!!!! Tierra is going home!!! I am so excited!!!! Haha.
"She's been really emotional since the beginning. She's an emotional mess."
Oh really Sean. Dur dur dur. 

Seeing the camera crew all over the place is a good reminder how fake this show is. Haha. 

----Rose Ceremony---

Oh, I love AshLee's yellow dress. Different but still stylish, feminine, and fun!

"I had a moment of clarity and I knew she wasn't going to be my wife. I knew Tierra was a source of drama, and just to make sure you all know, that is not something that I look for in a wife."--Sean.
Amen, boy, Amen.

His sister must have really helped him make his decision because homeboy is completely sure of what he wants!

Dude he is finally making up his mind! Yay! Good for him.

"I have given him every ounce of me..."Ashlee.
That's what I'm talking about--her dramatic phrases. Uh, girl, no you have not. All once a week for a few moments that you have with him? That is not giving him every ounce of you, honey. Ugh, sooooo emotional

AshLee is clearly not going home because they keep showing her. They are trying to play it up. Duh.
Told you.

Oh my gay, enough of these cheesy, over the top phrases from AshLee. Stoppppppppp.
Apparently Sean likes the vulnerability though. Because Ashlee has been super vulnerable with him and he keeps her. But because Leslie wasn't vulnerable and open on the last date, he is sending her home. Maybe we are seeing more emotion from him!!!!

Whoa Catherine...where did that come from? What are you talking about? Where is this all coming from? I'm so confused!!!!! Whoa, she obviously thinks she should go home. Wow. Mind blown.
I want to know more what's going on with Catherine. That was super random and very confusing. What???

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Well, folks, til next time.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

90 Years Later...

I give you: 
January Fun {Instagram Style}
I am completely aware that we are halfway through February and that I am just posting about my January life.
I am also aware that my life is painfully busy and I truly do not understand how you all find time to blog as much as you do.
So...I'm just gonna fill you in on life... Instagram style...right now.
Deal with it. 

Come follow me!!!! 


One: A very applicable quote.
Two: Caleb slept in my bed in Oregon! So weird. 
Three: Haircut time!
Four: I knew these girls in 1st grade and didn't even know it! Small world. 


Five: A little holiday craft in the classroom
Six: Sundance Film Festival 
Seven: A creative student?
Eight: Apparently I'm the cover of one of my student's tablets...so that's neat. 


I really need to get out more, huh? 
Ugh.